- Part one is out of balance with the others. It's the longest and the most polished. The others needed to match it in detail and complexity. I like part one a lot.
- Part four is the one that needs the most work. I hate re-reading it. Hate.
- Every time I re-read part five, I kick myself for not remembering to put in the details about Giles and Buffy writing to each other.
- It wanted to have no smut in it at all. Won't make that mistake again.
- I'm never sure I sold the details of the plot, specifically about why everybody was keeping Giles away from Buffy.
- If left with more editing time, I might have edited all the emotion down, which would probably have been a mistake.
- Some of the things I didn't like in my first post-mortem didn't bother me at all on this read.
- I find the Xander and Giles of the story satisfying: they're both damaged but soldiering on. I like the messiness of the relationships.
- It's interesting that this is sort of the back side of a tragedy. The primary actors in the main part of the tragedy aren't on stage here: we never see Buffy or Willow. We just see the fallout on everybody around them.
- If I were remixing it, I might write the scene where Xander and Giles meet Willow for the first time after all this. Or I might write a Xander-Dawn conversation a year along the way.
- I really like the soundtrack I put together to get myself in the mood for writing it.
I like to joke by saying that I write for my amnesiac future self, but really it's not a joke. Someday I hope to have forgotten the process of writing this story and some others, and be pleasantly surprised by what I find. Or at least entertained. Right now I'm not being entertained by much, not even tried-and-true favorites. I'm restless and want something like nothing I've ever read before. Will have to write it myself, I fear.
In the meantime, I'm back to failing to make any traction with my current story. Which is, at least, slightly different from all the other stories out there.