watcher once always

I need a brownian motion generator. Say, a fresh cup of really hot tea.

Wow, my morning pages got really nastily sarcastic this morning on the topic of moral inversions and fandom. And political dogmatism. You're all glad I deleted it.

Today is first draft or die day. I'm halfway there. I keep deleting text, which makes Mr Pedia stare at me funny. He explains to me that my word count needs to go up, not down. But if they're the wrong words, what's the point of keeping them? This is my thinking. I have a delete key and I know how to use it.

I'm going to have to refresh my experience of the canon source in order to get my tone right, I think. That's not procrastination, right?
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Not only must you have the right words, you must put them in the right order. That's even trickier, I find.
I have a delete key and I know how to use it.

This? Pretty much the most important lesson a writer can learn.

Learning to delete is hard. All those precious sentences that you've slaved over? It's brutal, just highlighting them and then casting them into oblivion.

And it's important. So tell Mr Pedia I'm on your side and he should stop looking at you funny. Artist At Work.

Quantity does not make up for lack-of-quality. And a writer's first line of quality control is their own brain.

-nods-
a writer's first line of quality control is their own brain.

Yes, yes yes, so much yes.

Also, first drafts are an exploration, so often, of the story space. Sometimes I don't know until I've written around it what the story is about. Then I need to focus on the real story inside all that bafflegab I just wrote.
I signed up for a Merlin big bang and I do not know WHY. It's not live until September, I think, but I haven't been writing *any* fic lately, and right now I all I can think about is NEW HOUSE OMG NEW HOUSE YAY.